September 2009
5 posts
fuck you for not letting me tell him what i wanted. you insisted on doing it. and then, of course, you got it wrong. and now everything is ruined, and whether you liked it or not, it’s your fault. no, i will not calm down, because YOU screwed up. when have i ever wanted just one of those two things? why wouldn’t i want the other - it’s my birthday. and now you’re pissed...
fuck i hate my family.
the brother, who doesn’t know shit about shit, is annoying, rude, and a delinquent. basically, everything that is wrong with the world.
and the mother? uptight, nasal, bitchy, hormonal, and everything that makes me want to take a fork and jam it in my eye.
it’s 8.39 am and i alraedy want to shoot myself.
at least i can stand my dad and my sister.
you know what i just found out? my poor defensless, wouldn’t hurt a fly cousin got punched. now he has a black eye, and he came home from school bleeding. he’s fourteen, a freshman, but generally seems to be an elementary school child because he has aspergers (a form of autism). why did he get punched? because some dumb ass seventeen year old punk said “you bullied my little...
August 2009
2 posts
i deleted my twitter.
i have a question. what does a college student “look” like? when i think of the ultimate chic, i think of a supermodel. you know, like kate moss or agyness dean. or camilla, from childhoodflames.blogspot.com (check her out, she’s like fifteen with legs to her cheeks and the best wardrobe since ever). for example, camilla: she dresses in denim, black, white, grey, heels, and...
July 2009
4 posts
i need a delicate gold necklace.
i love heels and boots. well, ankle boots. but i always feel weird if i could wear them. like, my face looks about 13/14, and my body is my age (16) but i end up looking like a kid in her mom’s shoes. at least in my opinion.
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June 2009
10 posts
omgwhataday! i woke up at six something, something that happens when i’m really excited x) krista and sarah picked me up at eight forty and we went to get gas, drove .. and got lost on the way there because krista didn’t know the exit or whatever. so we pulled over and i called my mom and we got directions. we got there at .. nine something? and we were no where near early, haha. we...
ok so things have been weird lately. i was suppose to take this algebra 2 class to replace my grade but i had to drop it. i went today for the first class and the professor said i couldn’t miss the final (i’ll be in england) so .. i can’t be in it. which means, i get to take it next year. yay! (*sarcasm*) i wanted to get a job, but everything is full. no one is hiring. literally:...
so ths morning my dad basically told me i wouldn’t get hired for a job. first of all, i can’t work certain hours because of my night classes for summer school (well maybe. because, i may not be able to take the class since i’ll be gone the last four days). and, i’m going to be gone for the last five weeks of summer so i’ll only be able to work two weeks - maybe. which...
a common theme for me right now?: fuck you. fuck you and you and you. fuck you, dumb ass guidance counselor, for not telling me until it was too late that calstate’s don’t accept you if you got lower than a ‘c’ in a class. fuck you, community college, for possibly not letting me take the course and take the final early because i’m going to europe. fuck you, parents -...
kso. three more fucking days as a junior :D and i have finals .. i can only get one ‘c’ to keep my b average. i have a feeling i’m going to get two ‘c’s’ for spanish and chemistry; because i have a c in spanish right now because i have to make up a quiz and homework .. and hopefully if i turn them all in and get mediocre on my final i can have a b. but in chem,...
i don’t care about, you know, putting my face on the internet, but i look really g’nasty right now. and in the first picture, my legs were all smushy so .. i blocked it out. so today i got up at like eight something (a rarity on a saturday), walked my dog, went out to get breakfast, and went to the mall in the afternoon with sarah, meredith, and bradley. i got two dresses - i only had...
i hate talking about my future. i really, really do. i’m a junior for five more days of school, and then it’s off to a summer filled with night school (retaking algebra ii for a better grade), hopefully getting a job, and of course: college applications. or at least, starting them. and to be honest i have no idea what to do now. i mean, for my future. i wish that i would have thought...
had a fun day. it was my friends birthday. we went to the beach (: i learned how to boogie board, which sounds kinda lame but it was soo much fun! and i met a couple guys. they were uh really friendly xD and well there weren’t many photo-ops because everyone was having so much fun that no one wanted to take pictures. but here are four
“sometimes i wish i could start over.
if i could, i’d be a photographer, a...”
May 2009
6 posts
had another bonfire tonight. just a few pictures; there really weren’t many snapshots available because there were only four of us tonight. and this really annoying girl but, whatever she left earlier so the rest of us were able to talk about what we love: sex. well, hooking up, lmao xD again, the pics are of me w my friend and their faces blocked out just because i don’t feel...
went to the park after school today with my friend sarah. i tried going live on stickam twice, but both times my computer hut down. i think my laptop can’t take it or something - i think i don’t have enough hard drive or something. sadddd D: anyway, here are some pics from today (:
had a really great night. day, actually. woke up at seven am for church, came back and my dad made homemade cinnamon french puffs. like from scratch. so delish <3 i’ll post food porn next time. they’re my favorite besides coffee cake (his coffee cake isn’t made with coffee). then i lounged around till two when my friend had a little birthday party. i was the only one there w...
Watchat sarah’s house; that’s kayla in the background and sarah’s holding the camera. sorry, i can’t bleep kayla out xD we just hung around; i felt bad because kayla didn’t get her swimsuit. it was just after star testing - totally lame but we get off half days.